Merry Christmas, but with a heavy heart......

Dear Sophia, Christmas Day is coming to an end, most of our family have traveled back home, your daddy, Charlie and Uncle Dougie, are winding down from the days excitement, but I can't help to sit here tonight with a heavy heart. Heavy with sadness that another Christmas is here and almost gone, and youre still not with us. I can barely let my mind wander to wonder where you are right now tonight on Christmas. Your stocking was hung and filled by Santa this morning, filled with so many things for you and so much hope and prayers inside too.
I pray that you my Sophie Ruth are being held and loved tonight, I hope that somehow you know, know that you do have a family in this world....and again when you are all grown up, I hope you can read back on this and feel the love I have for you right now, the longing to have and hold you near.
So Merry Christmas to you my sweet daughter, wherever you are.......Christmas was just not the same without you.... last year at this time, I really thought you'd be home here with us by now.....I know you'll be with us for the next one, I just know it!
Love Mommy